Saturday, May 13, 2017

MIA for YEARS...but I have thoughts seeking a place outside my head

Yeah, it's been years, and do people even really blog any more? 
I don't expect anyone to read this other than myself.
Still, if YOU are here reading this, let's just pretend you're caught up to current times, and another post could come to bridge the gap from the last few years.

I feel that I'm in a unique, blessed stage of parenthood. Motherhood, in particular. 

This morning my husband left with 3 of our boys for a Scout campout. Grant it, one of the boys is only an honorary scout, not officially joining until the fall. Still, Donovan and I said goodbye to THREE of my boys leaving for the night. I'm home with just my almost-3yo.

It's such a crazy stage of life, but what a blessing, such a blessing, to have not only multiple children, but kids spanning the years like this. I have a teenager now, he's awesome and old enough to babysit, quite independent, etc. Then our youngest is 2.

On any given day, I can be listening to The Wheels on the Bus while also hearing 21 Pilots in the background. It's crazy and so cool at the same time. I've got the growing-into-adulthood child, and my "baby". I can feel so much more intensely how fast these moments are fleeting.
Aidan, Brennan, and Cillian are off to camp. No diapers. No excessive amounts of extra clothing. No tears in saying goodbye to mom.
BUT, they were just sitting there listening to nursery rhyme songs! Aidan was just 2! They were the ones staring at me through the window, heartbroken that I'd actually go somewhere without them (like Kroger). I mean, they were just there. And now? Now they're nearly taller than me. Aidan's voice is changing. They SMELL, people. 😆

HOW? How did it go from them sitting next to me, excitedly singing nursery rhymes, to this? 

It's beautiful and right, I know. But you don't think that a blink can change things so much. 
Because that's it. It feels like I've only blinked my eyes. 

I complain and I grumble and get grouchy, but you know what?
I am so very blessed. To not only have 4 children on this earth, but to have them the ages they are. I have the oldest showing us how fun and great it can be to embark into teenager-hood, and at the same time the joy of toddlerhood to help us slow it down and remember the growing phases, which Brennan and Cillian still show us. It does go by so fast. 

God has given me quite a gift in motherhood. 

💙💙💙💙

1 comment:

Jody Lutter said...

Keep blogging! Cultivates your need to write.